I’m Sorry if I’m Asking Too Much

I’m sorry if I’m asking too much

But in a world filled with insecurity, coldness and isolation

I just want something real

I want to know you’ll be there

I want to know you want me too

In a world that has made people disposable

I want to know that I’m indispensable to you

I want to know that your heart beats faster when I draw near

I want to know that you’ll always be here

I need to feel that you feel me

In the innermost part of your soul

The part you can’t control

I want to know that you’ve never met anyone like me

I want to know that I make you think of impossibilities

I want to know you know me

In the innermost part of my soul

The part I can’t control

I’m sorry if I’m asking too much

I just need to know you crave my touch

That you want me as much as I want you

That you know, to you, I’ll always be true

I need you with the part of me

That no one ever sees

The place where my feelings go to hide

The place my pride has gone to die

I’m sorry if I’m asking too much

If it’s not passion set on fire

I don’t want it

So many things are mundane

Mediocre

Just getting by

My love can’t be

It will be an inferno

The air will be set on fire

Ablaze

Whenever I say your name

Can you feel me?

Somewhere between sleeping and wake

The purge

Sweet release of utterance

I’m sorry if I’m asking too much

Too soon

 

 

 

 

 

Misadventures in Dating: Notice of Intent

After interacting for a while and getting to know each other when do we get to the part where we verbally say what we want from the other?

Do we go on and on and on in peaceful ignorance or should we let one another know what our intentions are?

When should you know what your intentions are? Is there a time frame?

“Hanging out” for three months means what?

I swear I was born in the wrong era.

These waters are rough…

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Morning Devotional – Spur One Another On

I was spurred on yesterday and it was so refreshing.

I find that in our Christian walks it is imperative to surround ourselves with like minded people. Not so that you are a part of a clique, not so you can gang up on others, not so that you can find value in them, but, so that they can spur you on in this walk.

Paul states in Hebrews that this is something we should consider: “And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds,” Hebrews 10:24

The definition of consider is – to think carefully about, especially in order to make a decision; contemplate; reflect on

This was so important that Paul wanted us to carefully think about how we could spur each other on toward LOVE and secondly GOOD DEEDS.

I don’t know about you but sometimes I just don’t feel like it. I’m stressed from work, home, and everything in between and I just don’t feel like being loving much less doing a good deed… Have you felt that way before?

That’s why it’s so important to have others around you spurring you on and in turn, when you are filled, can spur them on.

Have you spurred someone on lately?

Do you have people in your life that spur you on?

What good deed can you do for someone today?

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Passion

Like the waves to the shore

My love for you is a rush

Of intense burning

Feeling

Needing

I never want you

To stop hearing the incessant melody

That is you and me

You’re my heart beat

You’ve got the best of me

The only part of me

I dare show

Exposed

Open

Our love is golden

Tender to the touch

I want you so much

Melt into me

Become one with me

Me and you

This can’t be undone

You make me free to release

Unleash

Everything inside of me

So true

Me and you

Ecstasy

Epiphany

Ethereally

You

And

Me

 

~Aisha Antoinette

Africa: Dream Turned Reality

I’ve wanted to go back to the Motherland ever since I found out my people had been enslaved and forced to come to America.
A few college friends and I would complain that we still hadn’t been given our 40 acres and mule and a mass exodus back to Africa was in order.
Of course, those were the high and mighty ideals of young college students who were still naive enough to think we could change the world.
The wiser we became the more we realized that a mass exodus was not only impossible, but implausible: No one would come.
As much as we wanted to return to our roots, the state of Africa was in such a manner that being in America was better.

Fast forward to January 2013.

My Pastor announced a missions trip to Africa…costing almost $3000. I just got a new job and I felt that this was the time and this was the place. The dream was finally going to be realized.

As I began to fundraise, and people got on board and excited about my trip, I realized the trip was going to do more for me than I ever could do for those Africans living in the city of East London, South Africa.
Sure, I took the mission of spreading the gospel to all the nations literally. This is one of the main reasons I wanted to go. To do my due diligence as a Christian; to at least one time travel far from home to bring the Good News of what Jesus has done for you, for them, for us.
After some time spent in reflection, I’ve realized that the trip would make the biggest impact on me.
I pray that God uses me in just the way He needs me there.
I pray that I’ve heeded His Word and call to go throughout the nations.
I pray that I’m changed and never the same.
I pray the Holy Spirit have His way in that place.
I pray that the love and light of Jesus Christ in us is so undeniable that they have to know Him.
Lord, let it be.

Africa: Dream Turned Reality

I’ve wanted to go back to the Motherland ever since I found out my people had been enslaved and forced to come to America.
A few college friends and I would complain that we still hadn’t been given our 40 acres and mule and a mass exodus back to Africa was in order.
Of course, those were the high and mighty ideals of young college students who were still naive enough to think we could change the world.
The wiser we became the more we realized that a mass exodus was not only impossible, but implausible: No one would come.
As much as we wanted to return to our roots, the state of Africa was in such a manner that being in America was better.

Fast forward to January 2013.

My Pastor announced a missions trip to Africa…costing almost $3000. I just got a new job and I felt that this was the time and this was the place. The dream was finally going to be realized.

As I began to fundraise, and people got on board and excited about my trip, I realized the trip was going to do more for me than I ever could do for those Africans living in the city of East London, South Africa.
Sure, I took the mission of spreading the gospel to all the nations literally. This is one of the main reasons I wanted to go. To do my due diligence as a Christian; to at least one time travel far from home to bring the Good News of what Jesus has done for you, for them, for us.
After some time spent in reflection, I’ve realized that the trip would make the biggest impact on me.
I pray that God uses me in just the way He needs me there.
I pray that I’ve heeded His Word and call to go throughout the nations.
I pray that I’m changed and never the same.
I pray the Holy Spirit have His way in that place.
I pray that the love and light of Jesus Christ in us is so undeniable that they have to know Him.
Lord, let it be.

Finding a Way Out of Darkness into the Light

You’re hopeless.

You’re lonely.

You’re hurt.

Nothing helps.

Nothing.

I implore you to seek the Lover of your soul.

He’s a gentleman.

He won’t force you…

Please open your heart to Jesus

For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son so that those who believe in Him would not perish but have life everlasting. John 3:16

Your sin separates you from God.

You cannot get to God without Jesus.

Jesus is the ONLY one who fulfills the Messianic qualifications.

He is God. God is Jesus.

To receive Jesus Christ is to refuse judgment to reject Jesus Christ is to accept judgment.

Beloved, come home to the Father.

Pray this prayer…

*Father God, I know I am a sinner in need of forgiveness; in need of a Savior. I know that Jesus Christ died on the cross for me and because of that sacrifice

I am saved. I am clean. I am forgiven. I ask for forgiveness of my sins and I ask Jesus to come into my heart to be my Savior; my Lord; my all. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen.*

If you prayed that prayer email me…I want to help you on your journey and praise God for you accepting eternity in Heaven with Jesus Christ!